HUMAN DESIGN WITH JOY

I’ve been there.

So busy holding it together the way I was “supposed to” for everything and everyone else

that I was neglecting holding it together for me …

And the wildest part?

I didn’t even realize it.

I thought it was normal.

I thought this was just the way things are “supposed to be.”

Even though there were parts of it

I would’ve thrown away in an instant.

Over time, this showed up in my life as

burnout, emotional rollercoasters,

and a sense that something felt off even when things looked “fine.”

That’s how conditioning works.

It gets so thick, so familiar,

you don’t even notice you’re living inside someone else’s program.

It’s something we learn early on, without realizing it.

You’re supposed to do this because you’re a that,

and not supposed to do that because you’re a this.

And you don’t question it.

Over time, it becomes who we believe ourselves to be.

That’s the mask.

Doing things and being ways

that don’t actually come from us.

That’s called conditioning.

Conditioning can make us work against how we naturally feel.

It makes us swallow our true voice, thoughts, and feelings.

It can look like forcing decisions, roles, or rhythms that never quite feel right.

There’s a part of you no one’s ever asked about — or maybe you didn’t know existed...or maybe you know, but haven't felt safe to fully express it.

I'm tellin' you. I've been there.